messed up ! (agm)

it's hard starting a day with a smile when i  know there is something wrong with my life right now

i can't say the reason that makes me like this but  i'm totally messed up :(

i feel there's "something" that makes me sooo hard to smile these days, oh noooo :'( 

well i know one of the reasons. 

i am getting dissolve with my anxiety to you, I am so confused about what i am afraid ?
which obviously I am very afraid you do things that make me disappointed with you